im home now. its been really different than i had expected.

here is what has been going on. actually it was an email to laure (my temporary roommate) with some edits

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yeah everything is crazy here. duane, elizabeth's brother (my sister-in-law) passed away on friday night. today is the viewing (there are two) and wednesday is the funeral.

my grandfather is out of ICU but still in the hospital. we think he might get transferred to this rehab/old folks place really soon.

my grandmother is getting worse daily. she has Alzheimer's and my dad is still in florida taking care of her by himself. it is so sad because she is like a little kid. so he has been down there for over a week now watching after her. who knows what is going to happen now. he cant leave them alone.

my grandfather in brasil is better. he was not in the hospital for long. thank god! my mom is still here.

as for me...its weird being back. i got really emotional at church. it was neat to see familiar faces. but malia and rachel were so right when they said that life goes on without you. and that is so hard when your heart is burdened with wanting to help all these lost souls and everyone here is just going on with their day to day lives. WAKE UP PEOPLE!! thats what i want to say. WE NEED TO CHANGE THIS WORLD!

im still having mixed feelings about being in both places. but now they are different. if i had stayed in belgium i would not be living this craziness which is good. if i had not come i would not be experience this part of life. this "difficultness", time supporting family, time being with family when everything seems to be falling apart.

on another note. it is FREEZINGGGGGG here. a lot of very cold wind. yes, i think it is colder than belgium.

i have so much to do and its already the 4th!! oh my goodness! today is gonna be a long day. im gonna go to the viewing and then watch all the kids in the family while the parents are at the second viewing.

my french is going to be horrible. but i knew i wanted to write a lot and get it out so i wrote in english. this is not confidential information so if you feel inclined to share more details, you may.

i am soooo fat. i weighed myself after 4 or 5 months. yeah..i gained 8 pounds. THAT IS A LOT!! i wont be going to the gym here so i dont know what ill do to lose the weight. blahhhhhhhhhhh!

i know the power of prayer and am blessed to have people petitioning God for me. there is so much to pray for, so i wont be specific.